Can God Heal Me From… People?

Hey, guys, it’s me, Daijah. I am so happy you’re here today, and I truly hope and pray that this touches you today.

Regardless of whether or not you’ve admitted it, you have been hurt in many ways. You carry it on your shoulders everywhere you go. Sometimes it trickles out of you in the form of anger, anxiety, or just withdrawal from situations, social groups, or conversations. And it’s true that some of the pain inside of us is caused by people.

There’s this song by Johnathan McReynolds that really touches me. In it, he says this: … I can’t point ’em out/I won’t say their names/I don’t know the damage/Or which one to blame/It’s just people, people... I know I’ve been hurt by people, and while I’m not going to call them out or blame them, the hurt still follows me around. It’s the same for you guys. You don’t know the extent of what was said or how it’s affecting you, but the damage is very much there.

But God can heal all things, including hurt done to us by people. He will return to you the years the locusts have destroyed (Joel 2:25), my friends. He uses your wounds in your testimony. He might let you limp from the hip, but you’ll be more relatable and change more peoples’ lives with that infirmity than you would without. I think that God can heal, but sometimes, we need to find peace even in the hurt because it’s something that God is allowing us to live with in order to strengthen us and others.

The people closest to you can often hurt you the most. Me and my older sis, Kayden, are still working through the pain we’ve caused one another. I’m still working on healing from my dad’s influence in my life. We might never agree on much. We might never carry out a relaxed conversation about God. But God knows that his limp and mine will help others. I’m still in the process of forgiving myself for reading and writing fanfiction, for my manga/anime infatuation, for the video games I played even though I knew that I shouldn’t, for cutting friends loose without warning, for not being the best influence in my sister and brother’s life.

…People. People.

We’ll never be perfect, but we should acknowledge the hurt people have caused us so that we can be aware of why we act the way we do. So that we can have grace for others and for ourselves. If you want to talk to someone about some very serious things people have done to you– rule of thumb being it bothers you at least once a day, daily– you need to find a trusted adult to talk to. If it seems as if you can’t tell your parents about it, see a counselor. Please just don’t lock it up. I love you too much to see you struggle with eating disorders, self harm, or anxiety/depression. You are too loved to be suicidal. Please, please, please, just don’t give up.

Thanks so much for reading today’s post. I hope it touched you. I hope you feel less alone, now that you know that you also can survive this–in fact, thrive through it.

Until next time…

Keep on dreaming.

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